realize what you never knew

i havnt updateing in like ....ever !

2005-06-16T02:20:29Z

sorry guys i've been a little pre-occupied with..... myspace....yea i finally moved onto bigger and better things. i didnt even know i had one untill the other day when somebody said nice mysoace and i had no idea what they were talking about. but thats ok. its pretty cool and im actually able to put pictures on there. i believe my livejournal obssesion is finally coming to a close....im sure ill update every now and then but for now its all about myspace.... and if you wanna see it is

www.myspace.com/3382302

thats for now untill i get a better URL

ok and for a very cute quiz...how to make a me

How to make a diana

Ingredients:

1 part anger

3 parts silliness

5 parts ego

Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Serve with a slice of caring and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Personality cocktail
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dashboard confessional is whats up

2005-06-13T22:03:15Z

So quiet
Another wasted night,
The television steals the conversation
Exhale,
Another wasted breath,
Again it goes unnoticed.

Please tell me you're just feeling tired
Cause if it's more than that i feeel that i might break
Out of touch, out of time.
Please send me anything but signals that are mixed
Casue i can't read your rolling eyes
Out of touch, are we out of time?

Close lipped
Another goodnight kiss
Is robbed of all it's passion,
your grip
Another time, is slack
It leaves me feeling empty.

I'll wait until tomorrow
Maybe you'll feel better then
Maybe we'll be better then
So what's another day
When i can't bear these nights of thoughts
Of going on without you
This mood of yours is temporary
It seems worth the wait
To see your smile again
Out of the corner of your eye
Wont be the only way you'll look at me then.

heck yess

2005-06-13T01:49:25Z

Your IQ Is 100

Your Logical Intelligence is Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional
Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-12T21:25:00

2005-06-13T01:28:27Z

not alot happened today......saw madagascar with my daddy. it was a very cute movie. then i ate, then went to pick up megans b/f. interesting time. sat at the pool and took pictures of the sky while they swam.

nothing else happened.....

2 days till the test

oh boy

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-11T22:24:00

2005-06-12T02:46:15Z

came back from the party. very fun. i felt a little out of place at first but then it all kind of came together once drew, jorge, and jeremy came. i got thrown in the pool with my clothes on and my watch and belt. but then again so did everyone else. fun times in the pool. i think i drank more of the pool and sniffed it in then i got time to swim. but thats ok, cuz it was fun. then we ate and didnt go back in the pool. we ended up in chris's room....like 12 or 13 people crammed in his room, playing truth or dare....without the truth. you can just imagine how that went. nothing too serious going on but it had some good laughs. poor alysa...thats all i have to say. we all got some pretty bad ones. i met the ex..she seems pretty nice, i dont really know though cuz we didnt have a very long conversation together.

other then that nothing much happened today so im gunna go and get some sleep

the pool weared me out

<33 so long

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-10T23:01:00

2005-06-11T03:12:41Z

oh yea....

4 days untill my test !

wish me luck
<33333

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-10T22:50:00

2005-06-11T03:09:28Z

everything is all better....and im happy as a clam. the most amazing part though was that before everything was ok i had prayed and asked god to make everything ok..... and like before you knew it we were talking in a civil manner. that is some hott stuff. tomorrow i finally get to see him at chris's
b-day. that should be fun. me and alysa are gunna go at like 3 and leave at 8. i believe 8 hours is enough time to see people. that almost like a school day except without the work. also get to see many other people that im am friends with and havnt seen since june 2nd. yay !

today was fun too. i went to the pool at night which is always cool, but i need a tan desperatly. i havnt seen sunlight in like ever since the weather is like shit but i suppose it will clear up with time and this summer will be fun as hell.

well im going to depart my friends and go to sleep. i need my beauty rest lol

so long

.......

2005-06-10T02:38:44Z

i dont know what im going to do....i dont understand why hes being like that. i thought everything was pretty much ok. i guess i was wrong.....

i was all happy today too.

maybe im making a bigger deal about it then i should be. but i just dont get it
maybe hes ok with everything and i think hes still mad/upset
who the hell knows.....

i guess ill go now...

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-08T18:37:00

2005-06-08T22:29:36Z

6 days to the test !

heck yess

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-08T18:22:00

2005-06-08T22:28:02Z

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern.

A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.

A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.

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Your Celebrity Sisters Are Mary-Kate and Ashley

Funky, eccentric, and offbeat
You're not a good girl or a bad girl, just a weird girl

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Guys Like That You're Fun

You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing

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Men See You As Choosy

Men notice you light years before you notice them
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one final one for the night

2005-06-08T02:47:58Z

Your element is Wind. You are the guy/girl that is
unpredictable. No one knows what you're going
to do next and what you're in the mood for.
Studying is not your thing and you would rather
go to a party than stay home. Life is just for
fun and you need to be free to live according
to you. You waste no time on lies, if you feel
or think one thing you say it even if it hurts.
Of course, people may be quite upset but that
doesn't really bother you. Its not that you
don't care, because you do, but in these
situations it's a waste of time. You live up in
the clouds and are quite a dreamer about life.
People often consider you beautiful, but harsh
and they would think twice before getting to
know you. But once they do, they'll learn that
you are always willing to take yourself and
your friends on adventures. Never will it be a
boring time with you and your friends
appreciate that. You are not often seen sad,
but you have your times. If someone has been
mean to you, you can quite easily trash-talk
them for betraying you. Nevertheless, you are
most of the time a good spirit who just want to
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lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-07T22:23:00

2005-06-08T02:43:26Z

Your Heart is Red

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In your eyes, people see life... You see yourself
as just an average person! You enjoy life, love
wildlife, but also enjoy time with those who
know you best. You like to get outdoors and let
your mind wander over all of the mysteries god
gave to you. You don't really have a certain
sanctuary because you're so well-rounded, but
you like having fun and adventures, but can
also be found sitting quietly about, reading a
book. You have a pretty good life ahead of you,
never trade it for anything else :)

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lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-07T22:06:00

2005-06-08T02:30:11Z

ok so the summer has been going pretty ok. its been boring somewhat but i guess its better than school. well any thing can be better then school, except i get to see everyone like everyday. thats the only part i miss. the getting up early and work crap it pretty annoying.

and also no matter what im still going to feel bad. i know theres nothing i can do and i gave a great pep talk but i wish i could be there to comfort him. i really dont get why i feel so bad. i just hope he isnt mad/annoyed with me. i have this feeling of withdrawl. i dont understand it. i've never felt that way except with like home when im away too long. i feel like a smoker trying to quite. i need the patch, but for people.

im also not allowed to see him untill saturday, which i think is gay as hell. but if everything works out then i get to see him at church. i cant wait unntill i drive

oh and speaking of that....only 7 days left till my test. dear god i hope i pass. id be sooo happy !!!!

well i think thats about it

so long !

ugh

2005-06-07T02:22:23Z

i have a physco mom..... thats all i have to say

great night up untill i came home.... my dad is waayyyy cooler. i mean dont get me wrong i love her but she needs to "lighten up" as alysa would say.

so as i said...the word physco kind of sums it up for you

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-05T22:07:00

2005-06-06T02:00:03Z

SpasticFreak707: meep
LLaMaFrEaK129: ur mom

heck yess
<33

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-05T11:28:00

2005-06-05T15:29:46Z

aerosmith is whats hott

- crazy -

Come 'ere baby
You know you drive me up the wall
the way you make good on all the nasty tricks you pull
Seems like we're makin' up more than we're makin' love
And it always seems you got somthin' on your mind other than me
Girl, you got to change your crazy ways
You hear me
Say you're leavin on a seven thirty train
and that you're headin' out to Hollywood
Girl you been givin me the line so many times
it kinda gets like feelin bad looks good
That kinda lovin'
Turns a man to a slave
That kinda lovin'
Sends a man right to his grave

I go crazy, crazy, baby, I go crazy
You turn it on
Then you're gone
Yeah you drive me
Crazy, crazy, crazy for you baby
What can I do, honey
I feel like the color blue. . .

You're packin up your stuff and talkin like it's tough
and tryin to tell me that it's time to go
But I know you ain't wearin' nothin' underneath that overcoat
And it's all a show
That kinda lovin'
Makes me wanna pull
Down the shade, yeah
That kinda lovin'
Yeah, now I'm never gonna be the same
chorus
I'm losin my mind, girl
'Cause I'm goin' crazy
I need your love, honey
I need your love
Crazy, crazy, crazy for you baby
I'm losin my mind, girl
'Cause I'm goin' crazy
Crazy, crazy, crazy for you baby
You turn it on, then you're gone
Yeah you drive me

- i dont want to miss a thing -

i could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss a thing

<3333333333333333

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-05T11:25:00

2005-06-05T15:18:06Z

i have a goal........i want to have three pages of entrys... thats the reason why im updating so much

meep !

2005-06-05T02:31:24Z

SpasticFreak707: L - is for the way you look at me
XCr0ssMyHeart16: O- is for the only one i see!
SpasticFreak707: V- is very very extraordinary
XCr0ssMyHeart16: E- is even more than anything that u adore
SpasticFreak707: and love is all that i can give to you
XCr0ssMyHeart16: love is more than just a game for two
SpasticFreak707: two in love can make it
XCr0ssMyHeart16: take my heart but plz dont break it
SpasticFreak707: love, was made for me and youuuuu
XCr0ssMyHeart16: ooooooooooouuuuuuu

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-04T15:39:00

2005-06-04T19:55:27Z

well im sitting here in my room alone and i was thinking...well i dont really remember what i was thinking at this moment but i do know i was thinking. but any ways.... i believe i have fallen for him. i mean its good cuz he IS my b/f, but i dont know if that would be good in the long run. i hope he feels the same about me.

oh and by the way..........10 days till my drving test

and a couple of months till warped tour....actually if i do the calculations right then it would be..lets see august 6th...today is june 4th...2 mothns and 2 days

heck yess

ok im going now

meep

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-04T10:33:00

2005-06-04T14:25:46Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	diana jordan koch
Birthday:	january 14th 1988
Birthplace:	brooklyn, new york
Current Location:	coconut creek, florida
Eye Color:	green
Hair Color:	light brown
Height:	5'3 ish
Right Handed or Left Handed:	lefty !
Your Heritage:	white......russian and german
The Shoes You Wore Today:	nothing yet but im sure it will be flip flops
Your Weakness:	not sure
Your Fears:	the dark, being alone
Your Perfect Pizza:	soft crust with extra cheese and pepperonies
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	become a nicer person, and next school year pass with all B's
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol
Thoughts First Waking Up:	what time is it
Your Best Physical Feature:	eyes, stomache, and feet ...meep !
Your Bedtime:	whenever i get tired
Your Most Missed Memory:	i dont know
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	macdonalds ..but both are good
Single or Group Dates:	both
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	lipton.. i guess
Chocolate or Vanilla:	VANILLA !
Cappuccino or Coffee:	coffee
Do you Smoke:	tried once
Do you Swear:	yep
Do you Sing:	try too
Do you Shower Daily:	heck yess
Have you Been in Love:	i dont know
Do you want to go to College:	yes
Do you want to get Married:	yes
Do you belive in yourself:	sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	i dont think so....but i did get sick on a simulator ride
Do you think you are Attractive:	maybe
Are you a Health Freak:	kind of
Do you get along with your Parents:	i guess
Do you like Thunderstorms:	only when im inside ... other wise im scared shitless
Do you play an Instrument:	piano
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	no....i dont think so
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	face meds...but thats it
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	of corse
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	ew hell no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	tipsy is more the word
Ever been called a Tease:	i think so
Ever been Beaten up:	playfully by the guy friends but never harmfully
Ever Shoplifted:	no
How do you want to Die:	i dont want to think about that
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a model.....but ill settle for something fun
What country would you most like to Visit:	not sure....maybe australia
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	blue
Favourite Hair Color:	blonde....but that can vary
Short or Long Hair:	medium
Height:	taller then me by al least 3 inches
Weight:	not heavy
Best Clothing Style:	anything besides ghetto and nerdy....so basically it can be something that makes the guy look good
Number of Drugs I have taken:	none
Number of CDs I own:	alot...i think about 120
Number of Piercings:	one in each ear
Number of Tattoos:	none yet
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	too many thing to name
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-02T21:55:00

2005-06-04T01:47:58Z

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend whatever you have.

You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out.

Who's the True You?

i dont know if thats good or bad
<3

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-06-02T16:38:00

2005-06-02T20:39:57Z

well it seems that the school year has come to end.......and im officially......A SENIOR.... i cant believe it. i made it through to many years to count of mandatory school. now there is only one more blissfull year of school. then im off to the real world with the rest of the dead heads. class of 06' !!!!!!!!

i hope summer is fun. im getting my license in 12 days and thats gunna make it better. i just hope i pass the test.

and i also read somewhere that one of my best friends megan has a boyfriend....AWWWWWWWWW.....congradulations. now we onyl have to find alysa one and chris a girlfriend and we can all be happy. heck yesssssss !!!!!!!

whoo hoooo

summer 05 is here !!!!!!!

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-05-31T18:03:00

2005-06-01T21:55:53Z

What kind of jewel are you?

Diamond

Your beauty is both breathtaking and stunning. Your friends could see you everyday and still be enchanted.

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lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-05-30T18:44:00

2005-05-30T22:45:52Z

another wonderful day and some more adventures to write about.

sunday i went to chris's for the bbq...and yes the b/f was there lol. not getting into that one. any ways, it was quite fun. he lives walking distance from the beach, so naturally we walked to the beach. it was soooo pretty. i would love to live there. he has a nice house too. we left at 10 and i went right to sleep cuz i was dead tired.

then today was more of a relaxing day. me and my family and like megans family and a couple of other families had a little pool party at the satalite pool. pretty good. i accumulated a very nice tan from the time i was there. i get to go back to school darker then i left.

talking about school, i only have one full day left. im excited, but also a little sad. i kind of grew attached to the guys and im going to miss them dearly. for the summer that is...... ill see them next year. but then after that year im officially DONE WITH MANDATORY HIGH SCHOOL. wow i cant think of that. its too scary.

well i think i described the past couple of days in a nut shell. that will be sufficiant so imm gunna bounce out of here

holla at yo girl.......

PEACE !

lo0kin2myeyes @ 2005-05-28T22:10:00

2005-05-29T02:22:56Z

i havnt updated alot lately. thats ok. along with the rest of the losers that actually made one of these, their starting to see the light. slowly but surly i will eventually stop writing in here and go back to my other diary that i must say is sooo much better.

other then that i have some updates on my oh so exciting life. i aquired a new b/f. heck yess. and i must say the way he asked me out will be stuck in my memory forever for being the sweetest way someone asked me out ever.

nina is gone. im gunna miss her. ill see her next year i hope. by then ill be a high school graduate. wow im gunna be soo old. only like 6 months till in 18 then ill be leagal. now THATS scary.

chelseas b-day partaaaayyy was yesterday. sleepover. i actually slept over. i was so happy. mucho fun. megan, dana, dallas, katie, me, and alysa. that should about explain it all right there.
- eat great even late....in my pants.
- write it down on paper.
- the pool incident.
- pig out
- sleeping in the same bed as alysa....poor thing lol

tomorrow me and alysa are gunna go to chris's BBQ thing for memorial day. i hope its fun. the b/f i think is gunna be there. i hope.

well i think that about covers it all. if not then too bad.

so long !!
<3333